Hiatus and Death

As you could tell from the last post. I was pissed off, through depression. I've been like that since I can remember, but not a single person I've known has noticed. And now my anxiety levels have become so high I can't breathe. And in turn I've been dangerously light-headed.

What is my reason for it?

My dog died. She was 11 years old.

My parents had just gotten into the car with her to take her to the vet for a check-up, when she stopped breathing.. They rushed back into the house, in tears, and calling out her name.

Now there is one thing that many people would not have in their house, for a pet; an oxygen concentrator, but we did. Even when we put the tube deep in her mouth, she couldn't get any air. Her lungs just couldn't take it, and collapsed.

Now as awful as it sounds, I want desperately to hurt the veterinarians that had "helped" her. Only 2 out the near 20 that we had taken her to had done something completely ludicrous, and unnecessary. The last one I wish would have something horrible befall her.. She filled my dog's lungs with fluid for a test that is in no way needed. But when you love a pet as you would a child, you listen to anyone, and pay anything. The biggest piece to the hatred against her alone though, would have to be cytology report. It took them nearly two weeks After her death for them to even let us see it. Before that they said that they had repeatedly sent to us. After we finally had it though, our blood was boiled, and hearts stabbed even harder, because in the report, they said that there was nothing to be worried over... And that was in the report from before the bronchoscopy had even been preformed.. They didn't want us to see it. They didn't want to save our dog's life.

Every person that called to get the oxygen concentrator, laughed. The girls at the vet (main doctor included), tittered and rolled their eyes after watching a pet owner grieve when one was fatally ill, or dead. To call yourself a doctor, in any practice, and then use your patients as a quick way to pay for your new car, is pathetic and shameful.